Then to realize love is not just what it takes,
To build a happy family,
Until it’s too late,
Money, cars, sex and other superficial stuff,
To sustain each person’s needs because love just isn’t enough.

We’re all broken by the time we can tell,
That love was never the basis of every fairytale,
We must learn to know what we can consume,
As mere mortals,
So much is needed,
We foolishly greed for more than we assume.

And all I can say is when you look at a portrait of a happy family,
It isn’t always what it seems to be,
Sometimes it’s breaking from the inside and haunted by wounds that continue to run too deep,

For the naked eye to see……

I am blinded by this picture of a happy family.

by: Rona Aying Llanos 6/2010

We call her astronomical, Ms Independent, and Boss,
The type of girl who does it all, a winning team without a loss,
Walking around calling the shots, walking around so confident,
The type of woman you dream about, gorgeous and acts so elegant,
The way she wears that power suit, black tight and hugging fit,
Black stalking, dress up to her thighs, making every man forget,
Yet doesn’t show just how she feels, all business gotta keep it real,
Makes you wonder how she treats her man, how good it must feel.

It must be the superhero suit that allows her to do what she do,
Their not no ordinary woman by the way they walk in those shoes,
It must be the superhero suit that allows them to swag like they do,
Got a man wanting a ms. Superhero to be my boo.

To Be continued
by Mark Llanos

At times I feel that I could touch the sky,
High, the feeling of flight,
Capable of fixing anything at anytime that I try,
I often fantasize about the taking the negative from this world,
And hurling it to outer space to evaporate into dust.
Sometimes I wonder how my day would be without the issues I see,
Can we forgive those who caused us problems if we,
Could somehow take every moment like its our last do we,
Fulfill expression that fills the soul or be alone, unhappy.

At times I feel like all my problems cause the reasons for living,
A sign given to me, a purpose, something in life that needs fixing.
I look beyond the simple factors that a decision is brought to attention,
The reality of being imperfect tends to somehow relieve tension.
If I can bring the world joy in my motives and action,
I plan to do it all again, in this stage of generation.

by Mark Llanos

When the going gets harder and you feel its impossible to move forward,
You gather the strength required inside you to finish.

When it feels like it’s a lonely path that your walking alone for days,
Don’t give up on yourself to find the light at the end of the road.

When your unappreciated for what you do, and you wish you can find another,
Look in the mirror and tell yourself you are worth it.

When assistance is not existent, and you feel your drive diminishing,
Don’t allow others to carry the burden for you, for the reward is sweet when the timing is right.

Give yourself credit for the decisions you made in the past,
While learning from the mistakes of others to provide experience and wisdom.

Determination is the key to all of your accomplishments.
Never forget who you are or where you come from to pave the direction in your success.

Mark Llanos

These are my favorite quotes from the movie:

Joon’s answer, when asked by Sam why she hated raisins, as she was picking the out of the tapioca: “They used to be fat and juicy and now they’re twisted. They had their lives stolen. Well, they taste sweet, but really they’re just humiliated grapes. I can’t say I am a big supporter of the raisin council.”

Sam: “How sick is she?”
Benny: “She’s plenty sick. Now listen to me, I’ve been doin’ some thinkin’…”
Sam: “Because, you know, it seems to me that, I mean, except for being a little mentally ill, she’s pretty normal.”

Sam taking the help wanted sign in the video store: “I wanna help…”

Jamie: Without suffering there would be no compassion.
Landon: Yeah, well tell that to those who suffer.

Every time I think life can be cruel and unfair, I think to myself what Jamie Sullivan told Landon:  “Without suffering there would be no compassion.”

I’m tired of holding up your ladder so you can sit on your pedestal,

And I don’t want part of your half empty cup of this lie that you mold,

Because your bickering about everything is just getting too old,

I don’t want to be the fuse that holds the light of your candle,

I’m tired of mending your broken ego after something you can’t handle,

I don’t want to tbe the air in your balloon that you hold up to reach the sky,

Because your hero stories are all lies,

I’m tired of holding your book up for you when you don’t remember the words,

Of making you look like a story of success when in reality you don’t know what you’re successful of,

Where there used to be a fine line that held us together, it is there no more, as I cut that chord.

-Rona Aying Llanos

because what good is a friendship

when every answer can unknowingly provoke

making the good times and the hardships

the past has no value when respect is let go

constantly being put down to feed the other’s ego

it’s time to let go

it’s time to let go

and to go far away

the furthest distance will help avoid the pain

the more a person is loved the door is open for wounds

in the form of insult, in the form of envy and hate

it’s time to escape

it’s time to escape

and to end this bad habit

even if it means losing a friendship

because the heart was fed to much grief and too much hurt

there’s no more space to absorb any more and

it’s time to let it burn.

-rona aying llanos©